And it's true, isn't it? If I loved him, I would have continued to keep lying to him just to keep him from feeling guilty. Ironically the person's comment also mentioned something about cheating. If I loved him, I would have continued to filter my emotions into 2 blogs. If I loved him, I wouldn't keep hurting him in small ways.
I believe if you really love someone, you wouldn't do anything to hurt them .... Liking someone a lot doesn't mean you love them.
Am I doing all these because I am a female and females can't keep to themselves? Or is it because I only liked him a lot and not love him? I prefer to believe the latter.
I believe I also happen to love myself more.
Anyway, it's much easier for me now because my feelings have dampened. I have ceased to comment on his blog or SMS him. Email is minimal except for informing him something is wrong with his blog. I've become used to telling him small minor errors, because I used to do that, whether be it grammer errors or sentence structures or just something aesthetically wrong on his blog. It's better to not contact him because then I won't feel hurt and I won't hurt him either. Firstly I'm sick of feeling hurt by myself no less, secondly he's had enough and I don't want to add to his problems. Some people are better friends than lovers. Wonder how it'll turn out between us. For now, I'd prefer to keep a distance between us.
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