Day 3, night

Met up with CJ. He joined me in school's theatre to watch a piano recital. Was wondering if I should bring up the matter of us and it stuff and wondering how to bring it up. Worried that it is not a good time to do so because he is stressed and tired from work and just wanted to see me. How am I supposed to bring up this kind of thing when he is tired and just need a break?

He was obvious enough about us. Never stopped holding my hands or holding me for long. At one point while we were on the topic of zodiac signs, he asked what I think would happen if our zodiac signs were together before I accidentally interrupted him with some other matter. I have never been so glad of an unplanned interruption for I truly have no idea what to respond.

When you've spent a certain amount of time with somebody, you start to wonder if it is possible between the two of you. I wonder if it is alright to try and accept somebody simply because he is there and wants to see me. Finally somebody who responds to me and asks me out because he wants to see me, not the other way round. It feels good to be wanted, it feels good to have somebody hold my hands in the cold room and it feels good to not be the one taking initiative.

I smelt him tonight, he smelt like SH. For some reason I was immensely aroused.

Could I get used to that warmth? Should I?