The End

This is probably the clearest sign. I've learnt not to wait for anybody's wishes, especially if it is a guy, especially if it is somebody I have grown attached to. Training in this aspect has shielded me some, but it still cannot prevent the sadness and disappointment which comes with the absence of something desired.

CJ did not message me, did not even wish me happy birthday throughout today, even though I saw him online last night. I don't know where he is or what he is doing. I only know for sure it's over between us, although it is debatable anything ever started. That's the problem with ambiguous relationships.

Ah, well. Got used to it, I guess.
As I've said it before with the other guys, I'd still like to be friends with him.