Jealousy

Hurt & jealousy. Sometimes it hurts beyond reasoning, seeing/not seeing him, knowing he is living his life perfectly without me, that he is happy, that he is meeting new people. Then jealousy is everywhere, over the things he have, over the people he has met, over his experiences. I'm even jealous reading about how he talks to some people on MSN, but not to me. I don't see him online anymore so I deleted and blocked him again because there is no point in having him on my list if it's never going to be of any use. I think he'd be happiest if I ceased contact with him at all, including not commenting (what's the use when the replies are forever short and sound curt - sounds like he's irritated). Maybe stop blogging? Nah, probably not either. But I know he'll live fine without me, he's that independent. If not do me a favour, why not do him one and go away.