invigorated

It is weird how a short chat with him can lift my spirits and invigorate me. Yet there are things to be regretted.

I MISS HIM.

sigh.

Lies, what lies! Here I foolishly thought he was different when he's not different from the other guys after all. Words, damn words. I'm never trusting what another man says again, nor am I ever trusting another man regarding such matters again.

Hate this heavy feeling in my heart. Torn between wanting to laugh at his words and cry at my foolishness. Another wound, another friendship destroyed, another lesson learnt.

Oh yes. And I don't trust myself in that department either. Probably going to keep myself as far away from it as possible, as long as it ever involves another guy.

No courage

I want to tell you that I like you.

But I have no courage to fall in love.

Missing

4 days away from Singapore and I miss him terribly. I don't like missing people, especially in this sense, because in the end only I'm doing the missing and missing hurts.